Alamak! Dirtynya tingkap dapur tu...berminyak.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
- There was once, I was in hiking and camping club - we went out and climb trees during college break. I looked down, felt nothing but wows and wonder of the scenes. Tak seghung pung:-)
- Then, I got married and we moved back to my old home in flat DBKL at Setapak Jaya. Third floor. I looked down and suddently felt like I was going to fall down. Pening! Seghiau sungguh!
- Yesterday, the kids wanted KFC and McD for Iftar. So, my other half and I went to Sec 18, Shah Alam where the McD and KFC are across the street of each other. We split. I went to KFC and hubby went to McD. I finished my orders first, wanted to cross the not so big but deep drain, suddenly felt like I was going to fall into the drain! So, I took the longest route, avoid drain hopping. Seriau ahh!
I wonder how could this phobia thing developed. From one who used to be active in hiking activities and now, couldn't even bear to look down even at deep drain. Luckily, I can still watch sceneries down from the airplane. Is there some adrenalin change somewhere that had caused this condition after one gets married or have children? :-)
I checked out from Wiki, this sensation is called vertigo, a dizziness triggered by heights. It is not fear of height (acrophobia) , cos I definitely do not qualify for that. It is triggered by many conditions. It looks serious - some imbalance in the inner ear or sudden change of blood pressure or as a symptom of motion sickness while sailing, riding amusement rides, airplanes or in a motor vehicle. Some conditions comes with vomiting and some other serious symptoms. Merriam -Webster Online said that vertigo is a sensation of motion in which the individual or the individual's surroundings seem to whirl dizzily or a dizzy confused state of mind.
Was I confused? No. Was I dizzy? Yea, you can say that. I do have a history of ear infection that caused hole in my ear drum when I was pregnant with Anis but I had recovered and eardrum is not in the inner ear. But it wasn't serious enough to the point of having other medical symptoms. Maybe I could just attribute that to stress. That's what doctors will tell you if they can't find anything wrong with you after going through series of tests :-)
Friday, September 26, 2008
Years ago, well, once upon time, I wanted to become a scientist. This only came about only after I had enrolled into UW-Madison, in the Chemistry course. I decided to do professional chemistry which required me to take the intermediate level of English Composition. I guess to prepare us for the scientific papers that we're supposed to write later in our life. So I took English 201.
The course actually make us write from a given theme and then work in a group to improve the writing. The team will comment on what we wrote, facilitated by the lecturer and then we make the 2nd and then the 3rd draft before we finally submitted the final draft.
This is my group - I can't remember any of their names anymore
Well, while unpacking (yeah, after 2 years moving in to this house,still not done unpack!), I found a piece of what I had written and I thought of "documenting" it here. It's kind like a little chunck of my life - of course with a little bit of salt and sugar added on here an there to make it more interesting to read. This was the year my father passed away - while I was still in the US....
Wan Sabrina Wan Mohamad
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
So, I showed him the pictures that's in Famygirl's scrapbooked. My intention was to show him what he's missing. But, his first words after seeing Aidin's picture was "NOT FAIR!", "He got 2 Thomas, I only have 1". Then he went and disturbed Abah who was asleep. Aiyo..lain yang plan lain pulak yang jadi. Well, to avoid him from continuing disturbing Abah, I made a deal with him. He go to school without fail or cry for many days and I will buy him his second Thomas. Of course he agreed.
I totally forgot about it the whole of last week. But come into new week (this week), I was reminded of my promise by the little Alif. He wants Percy.
Today, we went to Toysrus at Subang Parade after school to get his Percy. But after looking at the choices available, he decided to go with James instead. Selamat 10 bucks! There were no cheaper Percy version - only the special chocholate train edition which costs RM39.90.
Here's Alif, happy with his loot.
Then of course,must show off to Aisya ...who were actually thinking hard whether she could really play with the toys or not:-)
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
See Ahmad...in April - real chubby. Had to get adult size pants for him.
Ok, follow up from the Aisya's case of diarrhea last week, Ahmad too has not been feeling well. He started with headache, then a little bit of fever for a couple of hours followed by diarrhea. Sampai 7 kali on that one day alone. But he was still active, so that doesn't worry me much. Then he started vomitting after iftar. All the little food that he ate didn't stay. And during sahur, he only took a half mug of milk. That goes on for 3 days. Throw up after iftar and no more food. Just 3 days are enough to slim him down. I can see his neck now, and his behind is not as full as before:-)Ahmad today...can see the neck now:-)
So, I can say that ... inilah hikmahnya all the frenzy of diarrhea and vommitting last week. Ahmad had slim down to his normal size. Only need to work on his stomach, now. That one kena exercise but he said, "Ahmad tak mau penat"...*sigh*...
Monday, September 22, 2008
Azlin asked Alif - "do you think in English or in Bahasa Melayu?", his response was "English, of course".
This is the history that I think I should record...
"In my family, I have daddy, mummy, one sister, MORE sister and one brother, I love my family!". Do you have baby?, "Yes, baby Aisya". mengaku pulak Aisya tu baby dia.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Snow Heart Suji (this one without the snow and no heart shape). Alif said that this is Harp shape
OK, I've been looking for guaranteed sedap biskut nestum recipe with no success so, I am now resigned to use the best look good recipe that I can find - thought Lemon Cheese Nestum looked good. But somehow I got sidetracked and tried this chocolate almond pulak. This one need to be refrigerated first so, I thought, I would just prepared the dough first on Friday night and then cut and bake on Sat morning. But having bad headache on Friday night doesn't really help. A small nap became dead sleep - only woke up at 4:30am the next morning and the butter was left on the kitchen counter overnight - so, I had to work on the cookie dough right away! Well, after I had completed the sahur course laa..
It was not complicated to make. Real easy actually.
Just mix the following:
250gm butter with 185g icing sugar -- beat till mix just nice, then add
1 egg, 1/2 tsp coffee paste (1 used mocha paste instead, couldn't find coffee paste), 1tsp chocholate paste (again, had to improvise -use choc emulco instead). Cream them - just a little bit - no need to make it light. Then
sieve together 400gm cookie flour (plain flour also can), 1/2 tsp baking powder, 15 gm chocolate powder and add them into the mixture. Add and mix manually. Finally add in the 180gm almond flake (I only have 100gm - pun dah cukup actually).
Once all mixed up nicely, press it into square tin lined with grease paper or cookie paper so that you can take it out easily. Then refrigerate overnight or until firm. I didn't really wait overnight. The dough was done around 6am and I started cutting them out in the afternoon. Once firm, take out and cut them into long rectangle - about 1.5"x8" and then cut thinly to get small square or rectangle shape. Place the cut cookie onto greased baking sheet and bake for about 15-20 mins at 170C. I used shortening to grease coz the tips given said that if use butter to grease, the cookie might become more brown than it should at the bottom. And if use dark baking sheet, it should be done at about 15mins (that's what I use) but if aluminum it'll take a bit longer, probably 20 -25 mins. Let it cool on wire rack so that it'll stay crispy longer coz all side of the cookie steamed off equally (that's another tip).
Friday, September 19, 2008
Monday (15 Sept 08)
Aisya Nayly, the baby in the house (actually she's Nini's baby - I just used her presence whenever the children ask for their own baby:-) got sick since yesterday. She had diarrhea and vomitting with a little bit of fever. When we got home from work/school that day, found out that Aisya were not at home - Nini (my SIL) took leave to take care of her, so, she didn't send her to Kak Su (my live-in assistant). When I called Nini that evening, she said that Aisya had not been eating well, she just want to sleep, not active at all and still had diarrhea and vomitted after milk. I told her to bring the baby back to the doctor since she's not active. That actually reminds me of the talk show in radio IKIM about diarrhea. There's a caller who said that his 1-yr old baby passed away because of diarrhea. He brought the baby to hospital when it was already too late - the baby had organ failure due to dehydration, just about a week after the diarhea episode started. So, if baby has diarrhea and not active, better get treatment -they get dehydrated faster compared to adult.
Well, at about 8pm, Nini called for advise on GL (my knowledge on Freescale's admins still laku lagi:-), I directed her back to the nurse on duty, of course. After 10pm, got sms from her saying that Aisya is admitted to SJMC. I dreamt that my hubby told me his parents are coming. And then I dreamt again that he said that they've arrived. The next thing I know, it's already time for sahur. And then I realized that those info are not dreams. My in-laws drove all the way from Alor Setar after Terawih/Tadarrus to KL and plan to arrive in time for sahur. Just when I started to get worried if we have enough food for all, Azlin said that Mak bawa makanan from Alor Setar...oh ok!
Tuesday 16 Sept 2008
Only Alif go to school today. Anis still has stomachache - she came back from school yesterday looking really sick with tear stain on her face. Doctor said, it's just wind in the stomach - probably gastric. Ahmad complaint of headache. Then in the afternoon called me to inform that he's having fever, 38.4C but refused to break his fast. But eventually gave in and took a drink. Fever subsided in the evening. Mentioned that he had diarrhea - twice. But Anis still has stomachache though I can't gauge how bad since she looks like she's not sick at all. My in-laws took care of Aisya in the hospital so that Nini can go to work. I took Alif to see Aisya in the hospital on the way back from school. That's a promise I made to him if he go to school. He cried when Azlin carried him to the car in the morning and said that he wanted to go to school later with Abah, after he watched his cartoon. He promised. On the way to school, Azlin mentioned that he "tercirit" in his underwear but he still wanted to go to school. I guess the motivation of visiting Aisya in the hospital really works. He had fun in the hospital...finished up Aisya's soup. Aisya couldn't stomach the hospital food at all! Poor girl. But she was happy to see her Abang Alif.
Aisya was finally released from the hospital. By this time, her cousin, Kimi who came to see her in the hospital with Azreen's parents had also started vomitting. Ahmad vomitted a couple of times on Wednesday night - after berbuka. He still go to school today but called me in the afternoon telling that he felt like vomitting but nothing comes out and he has headache. The kids always wanted to call mummy first even though I told them to go to see teacher in the first place and let the teacher call mummy if something was wrong with them...they still prefer to call me. Anyway, that night, Kak Su pulak pening and by the time sahur, she couldn't get up much.
Kak Su slept almost the whole day today. Mak said she get up only a couple of times, probably to get the laundry and then go back to bed. She was in her room most of the time. Looks like she's on MC la today. It was a bit frenzy in the kitchen, I have to do everything now. Anis is of not much help coz she said she still have stomachache. Luckily Azlin came home early and helped out with the cleaning. I cooked the simplest meal -- kembung goreng + kembung goreng masak kicap. And then run to bazar ramadhan across the street from our block to get ayam percik for Ahmad since he refused to eat fish. Until iftar time, Kak Su still baring in her room. I brought her dates and make her get up and break her fast. Then, she went back to sleep after Maghrib prayer. I guess I miss having Kak Su around to help me in the kitchen. I am pampered since the last 9 years!
It was quiet in the kitchen when I go downstairs to prepare for sahur. I think this is the first time in almost 9 years Kak Su has been living with us that she missed heat up the leftovers for sahur. Even rice was not cooked - well, I cooked quite a lot for iftar so, there were enough leftovers. I was really tired Friday night, after iftar, I just told Azlin that I need to take a nap for awhile. The usual headache on one side of my eyes was on per its monthly schedule:-) I was planning to mix the chocolate almond cookie dough so that I can bake it the next day - it has to be refrigerated overnight. The next thing I knew, it was already 4:30am and time for sahur. So, frantically, I heated all the lauks needed, and then go back upstairs and wake the children up. Had to do it twice for Ahmad. During all this time Kak Su was still asleep or just lie on her bed. She refused to eat, said that her mouth tasted bitter. I advised her to force herself to eat and drink lots of water. She was still running fever though not as high as last night. And I added a note about having to stay in hospital if she continues lying on the bed, without energy like this. That actually gave her the energy to get up and eat. I haven't seen her eating anything else except date and her coffee during sahur, but today, she took kurma and then all the vitamins that I gave her (peppermint-ginger, garlic + multivit) and to add to that some watermelon. Just to show that she's trying to get better. In the morning, I see up and about, though her still look sick but she's not sleeping all day anymore. I think the thoughts of having to get into a car motivate her the most...
Up till today, though I know and kind of believe that diarrhea and vomit can be contagiuous, I had never experience anything like it. I thought it would never happen. But this week witness the most diarrhea and vomitting cases in the family. First it was Aisya who being a baby had to be admitted. Then Anis...then Ahmad & Alif. Aisya passed motion and her watery stool get on her Mak Tok's dress and tudung (Azreen's mom), who later on who her grandson (Kimi) from her daughter and the day later, the grandma got sick and then the cousin, Kimi pulak get sick. Ahmad vomitted in the bathroom which Kak Su cleaned later on and the next day, Kak Su pulak starts vomitting. As I am writing this, Ahmad had just finished 2 rounds in the bathroom. He doesn't look sick but his stomach couldnt hold food much. I can see my son is shrinking back to his normal size within this one week saja...my oh my...
Thursday, September 18, 2008
She has really grown! I looked at old pictures of her and wonder where has all these years gone. From a tiny little baby she was, she had catched up with most of her peers in size, well maybe overtake most of them in terms of size. There's still hope that those are all still the baby fat showing up:-)
Aina and Anis...11 years ago
Anyway, from only a 2As score in her trial (it could be 3As or 1A only, there were so many trials that she had actually lost count which one to report to me) and to the actual 4As and only Jayyid Jiddan for PSRA that really got her nowhere to any of JAIS's school. She went to IQKL with a goal of getting into a classroom that has aircond. Even having to get up at 5 am in the morning couldnt make us change her mind. She had actually set her mind to go to IQKL when she entered Year 6. The goal was to be comfortable in a classroom with aircond. She didn't really like to do hafazan when she was in SRIIMDE. Cried most of the time when I tried to get her to recite the surahs that she was supposed to remember. Gosh, even Ahmad who was in Std 2 can beat her in hafazan when she was already at Std 6 last year. So, I had not much confidence of her surviving in IQKL - doing hafazan half of the time, waking up early in the morning and being away from family, on her own at that tender age. But because there were not much choice and she really insists on going there...we let her be.
The first week in asrama IQKL was a torture for her. I remember the first time she called...it was already Thursday. We sent her off on Sunday and waited for her to call. When she did call that Thursday, it was night and all I heard was a cry from her. She couldn't even talk! She had to hang up and call again a couple of minutes later. I cried together with her. Apparently, there is only 1 phone and the queue was long and only that Thursday she got her chance to make the call and thus the long cries. I missed the time when she was around..she's young, at the tender age of 12++ and had to leave home to pursue her studies. I missed scolding her to hang her towel or to walk faster or to put her cups in the sink or to help me out in the kitchen. The second call, we couldnt talk much. She just asked us to come and see her on Sat or Sun coz she can go for a day outing in the weekend and in her cries she asked to tell all her adiks..."Aina rinduu...". But ..Aina is happy in IQKL.
She started her Hafazan with Al-Baqarah. It was difficult for her at first. She was kind of left behind compared to her other friends. Mainly because of her tajwid. She can't move on until her memorization of the verses were recited with the correct basic tajwid (all the panjang pendek and dengung at the right place). When she did start to move on, she had catched up with her friends and even beat few of them. At one time, she was just behind the fastest girl in her class. But when she started getting her period (boy, was I really surprised, even though we had been waiting for this to happen when most of her friend already gotten theirs - my baby is a teenage girl now), the speed reduces a bit.
All in all, I am really proud of her achievement. Even though, she is still living in her own world (I'll write what I meant by this in another blog, later:-), she ...really, I am really proud of her. She accomplished what I thought she could never do. I have to put more faith in her. And hopefully, she will become a Hafizah, one day, Amin.
Aina and friends - nasyid, she's at the far right end
Aina and friends choral speaking about life as Hafizah
Anyway, the travel agent came back to me initially saying that the Pacific Wing is fully booked on the 16th Oct, so, I had to get the more expensive deluxe room at Megallan. Few minutes after the email was sent out to tell her to go ahead, she called back saying that now, only the club house is available....that actually force me to go to another hotel, rather than move hotel after one night.*sigh*:-(
What will happen on 16th? Why suddenly the big Sutera Harbour has no more rooms on the 16th of October? I wonder...is this something to do with the 16th Sept...or 16th Oct...or 16th Nov thing ke? Or was it related to the announcement by Dato' Yong Teck Lee today? Maybe I should avoid my future travel plan from the 16th of the month..hmmm...
Anyway, Alif loves to play disney games or nickjr (Dora,etc) games from this laptop and just cry out for milk when he felt tired. And the next thing we know , he will just dozed off on the chair in front of the computer. Most of the time, this happen during weekend afternoon. So, last weekend, he did it again. I took the opportunity to capture this moment...
You can do anything to him at this time..he wont wake up coz he was in deep sleep already. At four, he still take only 4 oz of milk ..the same amount when he was 6 or 7 months. The only different was the bottle. He said, big boy drink in big bottle, so the small bottle were thrashed away.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
I was longing for bubur lambuk. Bubur lambuk was one of the special dish during puasa time when I was young. Che' (my mom) makes the best bubur lambuk. Our bubur lambuk is not the same like any other that you can find in Selangor. Like my neighbour said, it is unique with all the leaves and vegetable inside it.
Last weekend, I was so happy that the needed ingredients were available at Sect 6 Market. So that Sunday evening I set to make my favourite bubur lambuk while busy sewing Anis's baju raya and teaching my friend, Lela how to make her daughter's baju kurung. I checked back with Che' on the recipe. I thought I had written it somewhere in my book - turns out I didn't. I asked Kak Su (my helper) to pound black pepper and the roasted fish (ikan kembung). I just told her 1 tablespoon since Che' said for 2 pots, we can put in 1 spoon. When I put in the pounded stuffs into the porridge, it looked like there were too much black pepper. But once I put in all the vegetables and ulam and coconut milk, and more water, it looks ok-lah, I guess. By the time I put in the last ingredient, Budu, the porridge smells so good and looks so nice.... well, it may turn out ok. I returned my neighbor's bowl with the bubur and send 2 more containers to my opposite neighbor and another neighbor who is Kelantanese.
So with high expectancy, we buka puasa with the bubur lambuk plus other dishes - we have more dishes when Kak Lin (my neighbor) gave us 2 more dishes to add on to what we have. Alahai...tak terbalas pinggan mangkuk dia:-) Back to the porridge - when I ate it, I felt so down. The taste was too overwhelmed with black pepper. It tasted good but there was a bit of bitter after taste because of pepper. Azlin add rice into it and said it tasted better. I just couldnt stomach it down coz I dont like black pepper much. I told my helper that the black pepper is really too much but she said, it's good to have extra black pepper, "lebih pedas, jadi ubat kok, lada hitam". But then, you cannot believe someone who did not even eat the food!
Anyway, we had the modified porridge - I added more rice porridge to tune down the black pepper tast - for the next 2 days. My in-laws are here today coz baby Aisya (Nini's baby) is down with diarrhea and is hospitalized and they helped us to finished off the modified porridge.
Ikan kembung - dipanggang (roasted?), the amount depend on how much rice and the size of fish, maybe 2 atau 3 ekor
Rice - cooked till it becomes porridge like (pecah nasi) - i used 2 full cups since I was planning to give to neighbors
Pucuk paku merah
Daun pucuk kayu (dont know what others call it here)
Coconut milk (about 1 bowl)
Shallots and young ginger - sliced thinly (ginger - you can sliced into thin long strips)
Budu - satu senduk
How to make it -- pound black pepper (just a bit) with the roasted fish. Add the pounded stuffs into the rice once it has become porridge. Then add all the vegetables, if you like more vege, put a whole lot of it - there's no actual measurement but I put a lot of pucuk paku merah and daun pucuk manis and daun kayu. A little bit of daun kesum for the smell. Throw in the coconut milk and the sliced stuffs. Finally put in one full senduk (ladle?) of budu. Dont use the red budu. Find budu cap ketereh, brownish one. Put salt to taste.
Here's how it looks like -- this one taken without flash...
He had the pillows covering his face and his whole body faced the window the last time I peeped at him. Suddenly, I heard the sound of paper being torn. Another peeped saw Alif tearing a piece of white A4 paper on his mattress and I saw some white stuff in his ear. He was actually putting the piece of paper into his ear. When I asked him what he was doing...he just said in his TV acquired American accent, "I can't sleep mummy, it's too noisy". What can we say ...sorry dear and then we just mute the TV and fell asleep somewhere in the middle of the show.
As I was minuting this event, Alif keeps on coming up with his excuse to go downstairs, first it was his homework -- he insisted to finish up his homework tonight, at 10:45pm. Then, after he got his book and start writing on it, he suddenly remembered the chicken ball that he didn't get to eat this morning. Again, I had to take him downstairs to look for it and of course, couldn't find it coz teacher didn't pack the tupperware back into his school bag. He went upstairs and try to continue with his small alphabet homework but I guess he was really tired coz instead of writing, he kept on looking at the ceiling and suddenly he just dozed off.....he's asleep now.
Friday, September 12, 2008
2 programs that I coordinated and is still coordinating with another colleague from Petronas brought me closer to Korea. Assoc. Prof Park Doo Yong, who had contributed so much to the professional association that I had a big role in its formation and growth - MIHA, become the one and only Korean that I know of professionally and personally. Almost once a year since 2004, we arrange a course that gave him the opportunity to contribute to the association and also bring his whole family over for vacation. Always, everytime whenever they're here, the wife will bring me some gifts. The first year was origami paper set which was very popular in Korea. And then, some toys, aeroplane set in the 2nd year. I can't recall what's next but the latest, late July this year, I've got beautiful Guy Laroche towel set. Knowing that we had problems to gather participants for the course this time, he even offered to teach for free! Such hospitality is hard to get. That shows the giving culture that people of this country have. And that's what I saw when I watched korean drama. Similar to ours, "buah tangan" is a must have when visiting. The gracious and polite way of talking to the elders no matter how hurt you are with the words that the elders said to you. I believed what they portray is part of their culture even though it's all just a show/entertainment.
I'm now given the opportunity to learn what Korea has to offer in Industrial Hygiene to Malaysian. On top of it being a learning trip, it would give me the opportunity to visit the country that I had come to learn and like -- heck, I even bought 2 books on korean language and phrases! Now come to the point of whether I would be able to go or not. Since I am very new to the company, it's not really justificable for them to sponsor me for this trip but they do support on me going and other than monetary support, I could get other support like, unpaid leaves. But then, would my husband allow me to go if its on my own cost? I knew what the answer would be. What would be the outcome of this trip for me? I guess more development in my profession as Industrial Hygienist - the few lots in this country. Is it more of personal development or more beneficial for the company? Maybe both, not to mention to the association and Malaysia as a whole...I'm deviating. Now, how can I justify and get the permission. My husband already said "suka hati ayang..kalau tak bagi pun ayang pergi jugak, nak buat apa tanya lagi!". Well, I do really want to go, even though I would feel guilty leaving the family behind for a week, but the urge to go is stronger - they will be fine.... But when my husband said that I know he is very reluctant of me going and at this point wouldn't want to care anymore. I would say this study trip would be online with what I wanted to do once I am done with working. I want to go into writing and teaching, and this experience would be most valuable and precious addition to me, which eventually would benefit the family as well. To go or not to go...would he ever give me a straight yes no matter how reluctant or adamant of him of not wanting me to go? *sigh*..